you all know about the neighbor that shot the leg off little Butchie Kitty, and I just have worked for 3 yrs now on myself to forgive the basturd. And I had almost resigned myself that it was not with in me to let his soul off the hook. but still, I pray that the Good Lord will erase this judgement and hatred I feel towards him for what he did. and remember I told in the acct. of me facing him and screaming at him, that I looked into his eyes and felt such pity for what I saw there.)
last night or early this morning I dreams I had to do over to his property, I feared he would shoot me, but I didnpt care. It was like I knew something was about to happen and I had to know I could forgive him. I went to his house and they were in shock that I was there!. (me too, actually!) I remember snow and cold, but I came to say something.. I looked at the wife, she was very uncomfortable, and I put her at ease. I looked at him, and said I will only bring this up one last time, I need closure."
I said to him, "You will never on earth KNOW the heart aches and pain you brought to others this time around, and for so very long I wanted only for you to hurt 10 fold. I hated myself for not being able to get over this incidence, but even though I still have work to do on myself and forgiveness, I release you from my judgement and hatred. I only ask that you really THINK before you hurt anyone else." and I looked into his eyes, ..they were crystal blue pools, not the pitiful dark eyes I saw 3 yrs ago screaming in his face. I saw that something had changed him.. that he no longer was drinking, his aura was clean.. (All things I precieved in my dream, as there is no way to know this in real life) and that he was sincerely sorry. I have no understanding or awareness as to why he changed...the other thing was his wife who is very attractive in real life was old, and haggard looking like she had the weight of 5 worlds on her, and that she was about to just give up. I said my good bys, and thanked them for allowing me my say. I remember looking at what she was doing the whole time I was speaking to her husband. she had made a tiny little hummingbird home out of peices of wood from the woods.
then I wok up.
:sigh:
last night or early this morning I dreams I had to do over to his property, I feared he would shoot me, but I didnpt care. It was like I knew something was about to happen and I had to know I could forgive him. I went to his house and they were in shock that I was there!. (me too, actually!) I remember snow and cold, but I came to say something.. I looked at the wife, she was very uncomfortable, and I put her at ease. I looked at him, and said I will only bring this up one last time, I need closure."
I said to him, "You will never on earth KNOW the heart aches and pain you brought to others this time around, and for so very long I wanted only for you to hurt 10 fold. I hated myself for not being able to get over this incidence, but even though I still have work to do on myself and forgiveness, I release you from my judgement and hatred. I only ask that you really THINK before you hurt anyone else." and I looked into his eyes, ..they were crystal blue pools, not the pitiful dark eyes I saw 3 yrs ago screaming in his face. I saw that something had changed him.. that he no longer was drinking, his aura was clean.. (All things I precieved in my dream, as there is no way to know this in real life) and that he was sincerely sorry. I have no understanding or awareness as to why he changed...the other thing was his wife who is very attractive in real life was old, and haggard looking like she had the weight of 5 worlds on her, and that she was about to just give up. I said my good bys, and thanked them for allowing me my say. I remember looking at what she was doing the whole time I was speaking to her husband. she had made a tiny little hummingbird home out of peices of wood from the woods.
then I wok up.
:sigh:


